March 2011
80 posts
Awake Alone Again
Awake alone again as planned Like waves that drift along the sand The time is once again at hand To pray one day to understand Awake alone again once more Like waves to bring me back to shore I pray one day my faith’s restored I pray my life’s worth living for Awake alone again aghast Like waves whose time will soon be passed I pray today the die be cast And I to die one day at...
I really ought to start drinking. There’s no other way for me to deal with my shitty life.
put another tally to the years I’ve spent alone
on the eve of my nineteenth - homework.
no one’s ever wanted to be in a relationship with me
happy tumblrversary to me
I’m pushing away the people I trust, the people I love
I think I expect them to fight it and pull me back
you've replaced me.
florescents:
I hate knowing
that you’re online, but you won’t message me.
that you’re texting, but you won’t reply to me.
that you’re on the phone, but you were too busy to call me.
that you’re happy, but not with me.
February 2011
51 posts
I’ve got plenty of friends who want to know what’s on my mind.
And I’ve got plenty of things on my mind that I can’t tell them.
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drinking, smoking, drugs - my thoughts
Due to tl;dr, I’m putting this under a “Read More.” That way it’s easier to scroll past - not because I don’t want you to read it. I really want you to read it.
I want to drink. I want to smoke. I want something that’ll make the pain of life bearable.
But I’ve seen people drink and smoke. I’ve seen monsters with my own eyes - and I know that I...
I’d rather be justifiably angry.
Don't Be Afraid
Don’t be afraid that tonight’s all you have That you’ve lost the path you knew Don’t lose your hope when you give up your plan And you fear that you can’t follow through Don’t be afraid of the tide coming in But ride the waves when they crest Don’t lose your hope when everything’s lost And pray it turns out for the best There’s no sense in...
today, at a quarter to two, I finally decided that I wanted to kill myself. For those concerned, there’s no way I actually will. But today, the thought occurred to me directly when for the past few days it’s merely been teasing me.
I’m slowly crawling back into my shell.
