June 2010
64 posts
today
I kept my mind off of things
bought Half-Life 2
and decided that I’m not the only fish in the sea, and there’s no reason to be angry if I’m not the right fish for anyone
did that come off sounding bitter? it should have, a little
anyways
I think tonight is a good night to write a poem
looked at you, I lost my head better of broken, better off dead wish I was your guy instead.
resign yourself to second-best it’s clear you lost the final test
don’t believe the lies they told you they just want the world to mold you
May 2010
85 posts
today
has been absolutely terrible
first, _____ changed her relationship status and I was reeling. this must mean something important, like maybe she’s done with waiting for me someone
that kind of sent me into existential crisis
and I tried to validate my existence today by proving I had worth to people, that I had worth to myself
so, of course, I went to my social networks in search...
happiness is a warm gun
put in the white album
going to bed
http://lonelydino.com/?id=207 →
Hello - Glee version
I really like it, especially...
if you do anything you make the problem worse
haha
don’t comment
comment
don’t make a joke about it
don’t say anything along the lines of “wow, i didn’t know you could get married at your age”
don’t ask her if it’s serious
tell her how you feel don’t tell her how you feel
don’t say anything about it
go get breakfast. or lunch.
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Sorry
i’m done for tonight
and now you’re crying
what, why
what did you do
do you regret not saying anything
is it something else
maybe eighteen long years of watching your friends move on
finally being the only one in your group of friends to never have a girlfriend
finally being the loneliest
tell her how you feel give up
go to bed, alone, again, like you will every night for the rest of the month the year...
she’s not in Facebook chat
yet she still appears to be online
(if we can trust that comment she posted 54 seconds ago)
tell her how you feel write a poem or something about it
hope she saw your shameless blog promotion on your Facebook status
go to bed
or, don’t say anything
she’s offline
tell her how you feel
go to bed
talk to her
she’s still online, and it’s twelve oh eight am
twelve oh nine
ask her why she’s still awake
ask her what finals she has left
tell her how you feel tell her you miss high school
tell her you miss that class with her
tell her how you feel tell her your summer’s been great
tell her you’re almost over your sickness
tell her how you feel twelve oh...
jaela:
danielfaraday:
oh my god i am like one of the most ~open~ people when it comes to different opinions but things that piss me off include:
not knowing what the things you are talking about actually mean. this kid is like WE LIVE IN A SOCIALIST COUNTRY BECAUSE OF OBAMA. bro, come on. no.
when you insult others because of your differing opinions. it makes you look really idiotic, and...
Don't let me down
don’t let me down
don’t let me down,
don’t let me down
Not really. But I figured I’d get some reaction out of that.
Gingers suck :P
Don't say goodbye →
I Wanna Hold 'Em Like They Do In Texas Please
Poetry
uses highly deliberate word choice
and I just can’t do it.
“Speaking of cockfighting… cock.”
– me
Reblog if you're straight, but fully support gay...
jaela:
appleswithfaces:
barrowmanlover:louisajane:rainbirdgirl:foxylouu:amiginger:signehansen:okaylove:fuckyeahrandomstupidity:pwnator:helloschroddy:angelcondensada:everythingisstatic:paintmyworlddarkblue:mysentimentaltune:iamnotjustinbieber:loudine-babayy:gabbyliz:thisismywonderland:iwouldnevertellyou:(via pantstighterthanplastic)
This is it
This is the last test I have to take - the last barrier to break before I’m free of high school once and for all.
French - I’m coming for you.
I can't tear myself away
I’ve been attending some classes at school despite the 14th being the last day of school for seniors. One reason (tests) or another (_____) made me come back twice last week, and I’ll be there for my final tests on Monday.
It just kind of feels impossible to get away from Rampart, and impossible to get away from _____. At least there are enough excuses for me to sit in class with her...
Today
I took one of the hardest tests ever and I graduated high school.
Only three more days until I’m free forever.
James: Ask her out.
Me: Fuck you.
James: Fuck you too.
James: Suck my cock.
Me: Maybe I will.
James: You'd like that.
Me: So would you.
Jemaine Clement
will be playing the Men In Black III villain.
I am so close to freedom
4 hours until graduation.
90 hours until my last tests.
The Jump →
_____ is offline.
Isn’t she always?
My theory?
I think that when you die, you keep living your life the way it was before, except everyone else is fake. That’s also what I think happens when you’re alive, so don’t trust me on that one.
Fiction
They said laughter was the best medicine. I don’t know about that. It feels coarse, like gravel in my throat… Like it’s not actually my laughter. Like it’s someone else’s laughter that I’m borrowing just so I can fit in. Why try to fit in, anyways? Those guys are jerks. They deserve everything they got. There was no reason for me to hang out with them, I guess I just needed to belong to...
And love? It doesn’t change anything.
It just makes it a little less clear.
(Is this heaven?
Is this hell?
Is this purgatory?
Is this the only thing that’s real?
Is this all inside my head?)
This life
This life we are living This, this here
Is heaven
It is hell
It is purgatory
It is the only thing that is real
And it is completely imaginary
Just finished Glee.
Easily my favorite episode so far.
(In case you hadn’t gleaned that from my Twitter postings.)
I went back through my Tumblr posts
just in case _____ comes across it, and replaced her name with _____. It’d be really creepy if she came across some of the older posts here where I explicitly mention her.
I also removed some of the more direct references where it’d be obvious I’d be talking about her.
This makes me a good stalker right
Drifting to sleep...
17 mins left on this torrent. Listening to Glee songs to stay awake, like the Poker Face cover I may or may not have posted below.
Anyways, yes. Trying desperately to stay wake.
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shh, you didn’t get this from me.
Ep 14 of Glee expires on Hulu in three hours, so I think hope that’s when the new one goes up and I can actually, you know, enjoy something awesome.
In the meantime, I’m gonna torrent it.
Damn parents.
Apparently I was wrong, and Glee was actually on when I was complaining about it not being on. I was confused because they were watching the DVR recording of tonight’s American Idol at the same time.
Damn Mountain Daylight Time.
Glee comes on in half an hour.
Part 2 - The Beginning →
Part 1 - The Last Chapter →
No one to call in the middle of the night
No one to tell you it’s going all right
No one to love you, no one to care
No one can see you although you’re right there
It's your fucking nightmare.
